In My Feelings

I knew that you wouldn’t choose me.

If I took this step, you wouldn’t be afraid to lose me.

But how to compartmentalize feelings,

I never could understand.

Now I’m stuck with emotions I can’t comprehend.

While sitting at home trying to make amends,

Conflicted when I reminisce,

Should I really miss the way the we kiss?

Is it normal to think so much into it?

How can I push that out my mind,

When it made me feel so good inside?

Can you teach me to feel the way you do?

So I won’t be around missing you,

You make it look so easy when you never hit me back.

I wish I could feel like that.